personal training session today

was kickboxing. My first kickboxing session since I watched the fights on the weekend and proclaimed to my trainer that I want to step into the ring. It may seem a bit strange but I felt the need to work extra hard today, sort of to prove to my trainer that I am willing to put in the work to get to where I can actually fight in a ring. Oh boy, and work I did. I was exhausted by the time I was done..... sweat was dripping from my ponytail in the end and my shirt was drenched, but I worked really, really hard and I think did a solid job.

I just read back over my last few posts and realize I must seem a bit obsessed with this whole kickboxing thing and all I have to say is...... yup I certainly am!!!! lol

A plan is forming

I wrote about my night of being inspired by kickboxing and to be honest, have not thought of much else since. That athlete who resides deep with me is beginning to push its way out.... I can feel it... my internal dialogue is no longer screaming that I can't do it, my mind is now automatically telling me,"you got this - they are doing it, you can do it too"

Now I realize that this is still quite a ways off and it is going to take a lot of hard work on my part to get from where I am now, to getting into a ring and kick boxing but you know what, I never in a million years thought that I would be where I am today in comparison to where I was 2 years ago.

So this morning when my trainer met me at the gym, I told him I have made a decision, I want to kick box in a tournament..... then I followed it up with "now don't tell me I can't do it, even if you think I'm too old, or not skilled enough, just let me try and work towards it anyway" I guess there is still a little bit of the old me who doubts my abilities and has limitations on what I can do. My trainer, is on board with this. I have decided that I want to work towards losing 40lbs by January, which will take me to around 200lbs, and then I will join the hard core gym where I can train to fight.

I am super excited about this. I keep thinking about the day I joined the gym just under 2 years ago and telling my trainer that my goal was to do a try a tri..... he got excited about that goal and made it possible for me to get there..... and I have faith that he will be able to get me to this new goal as well.

Onward and downward

kick boxing inspiration

Just home from watching the Kick boxing tournement and WOW, I am super inspired. There were about 10 fights on the card and about 3 of them were woman. In two of those fights the women were actually a lot bigger than I ever expected, in fact one woman was around the 200lb mark. They were awesome to watch and when I saw how the crowd was cheering them on..... I was in awe.... I want to be out there fighting. OMG I can't even believe that I said that but I do, I want to be in a kickboxing match.

Brutal Workout with a great lesson learned

Wow, yesterday was boxing day at the gym. Now I always look forward to Fridays workout because I have found a love of boxing and more particularly Muay Thai, or kickboxing as it is also known. I feel so strong when I am doing this workout and so energized when I am done. Well this Friday, my trainer decided to kick it up a notch..... or 30! I was on the bike doing my normal warm up when I saw him coming through the gym, kick pads in hand along with...... oh no the dreaded 30lb weighted vest. So i spent the next 40 minutes struggling through a boxing session (no kicking as I am resting an injured knee at the moment). When I say struggled I really do mean struggled, I was absolutely exhausted. When I was done doing that, I had a quick sip of water and it was off to the stair climber to do 10 floors wearing the vest. I seriously thought I was going to pass out it was so hard. After I struggled through 10 floors, my trainer took the vest off of me and asked me to do one more floor, and then asked me how it felt. It was so much easier and much less painful on my legs I could hardly believe the difference.

The point of this exercise was for me to see not only how far I have come, but also to see how much further I will progress by knocking off another 30 lbs. There is a little voice in the back of my head that keeps saying "imagine what you will be able to do when you get to your goal weight of 150 lbs" which is the equivelent of shedding 3 of those vests.

Hmmmm, I think I am having an "Ah ha" moment. For the first time ever rather than fearing my first ever try a tri in June, I am motivated to lose as much of those 3 weighted vests as possible, and kick the tri's ass, and the best part is that I actually think that I can and I will!

My television debut :)

I posted a few weeks back about taping a segment with my hypnotherapist for our local news. Well tonight it was on T.V.- I was so weird to see myself on television, but probably the best part was that I didn't look half bad- lol.

I also watched the season premiere of the Biggest Loser last night, yes I perched on the edge of my couch body bugg firmly placed on my arm and imagined that I was right there with them.

this morning I even asked my trainer if we could do a biggest loser style 3hr workout(I told him I wanted to workout so hard that I threw UP!) Hes suggested we start with 1.5 hrs on friday. So he will expect me to me at the gym 30 to 45 minutes before my normal session at 7:00 a.m. and run 1.5 miles on the treadmill, and then proceed with a 60 minutes of kick boxing with him. Boooya, I am up for the challenge.

Finally, my very dear cousin underwent surgery this morning for Vertical banded gastroplasty (stomach stapling). I know he has suffered with his weight like I have, with the two of us always being the two fat kids in the family, so I have heard he is doing well and am wishing him luck on a quick recovery and good things ahead :)