Well, it is time to dust off my blogger page and try again..... sigh I have been here many times before, trying something new, full of excitement, and hope and determination that "this" will work.
This time is a little different for a really important reason but let me back up just a little bit. I was doing so well, 6 years into my journey to find the real me, I was down to a relatively fit 235 lbs, my confidence was soaring, my dating life was pretty good, and I was killing it in the gym 6 days a week, lifting crazy weights and boxing - not just boxing, but sparring - REAL boxing. I was so proud of myself.
Last August I was going to do a biggest loser run in Pennsylvannia and ended up tweaking my back shortly before leaving.... I went anyway and after spending hours and hours sitting in a car as well as walking around Pittsburgh for two days straight, I was in no shape to run a 5k. I made the decision to complete it anyway, and I walked, very slowly the entire 5k. I felt good for doing it but it caused MAJOR problems for my back issues and put me out of commission for nearly 2 months. At the end of that month, I by change found out that a guy I had been dating casually (he said he was not interested in being in a serious relationship) was in fact IN a serious relationship. We were not dating at this time, but very much still connected and it hit me very VERY hard. The third thing was that my already busy job became busier when the other manager at work moved on to another position and it was decided that they wouldn't replace her, I would simply take on management of the entire department!
These three things created the "perfect storm" and I basically checked out and numbed my pain, both physical and emotional, and my stress with food. And so began a full year and a half of eating out of control. Of course none of the food helped with any of my problems and I now find myself just shy of 50lbs heavier than I was last August but the weight gain alone is not what pushed me to try again. I played ball on my nieces baseball team in October, and while I didnt' do anything to actually hurt myself, the next morning my knee started to hurt.... a month later and I was still in pain enough so that I had to give up doing any lower body weights at the gym and have pretty much stopped boxing. I finally went to my Dr. who sent me for an ex ray and confirmed I have arthritis in my knee and WILL NEED A KNEE REPLACEMENT WITHIN 10 YEARS if I do not lower my weight. I also did a blood test and I am now pre-diabetic, my cholesterol is high and there is something that is not right with my kidney function and if it's not better in January I will be referred to a specialist.
This absolutely terrifies me. I am now in a position that it is critical that I lose weight now to avoid major health concerns in the future.
I have been referred to another Dr. who specializes in obesity and have been put on a special diet. so this is where my current journey begins.......
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